Seize my tomorrow, learn my yesterday

Good day readers! I've been abandoning my blog for weeks... and yes, the main reason is study. Almost everything that I do involves movement and also brain exercising! I'm restless considering how little I've been sleeping lately. (trying to burn the midnight oil as exam is 1 week away). Despite that, everything is going on smoothly, especially my reconstruction of time management.

I feel fresh and these upcoming 7 days are the only time I have to gear up for the finals. eeps!! Scared? Yes. Why? I want satisfaction. Satisfaction? Meaning I want to make myself proud with my own efforts and not just to sit back and let it be last minutes. I hated last minutes. Everything that starts on the eleventh hour usually crumbles my satisfaction. Not a good feeling.

For this second semester, my goal is straight A's, hoping the B's will go away. English Language and BM, probably no problem. Math and History are the 2 subjects that always go for B's no matter how hard I tried. Even now I feel a little uneasy just blogging about this!! People say that high school is a very great point in life. I have a whole life in front of me, waiting. Honestly the thought of opening up to the outside world is creepy. Being me, I only ask for a good place to further my studies, have good friends, be a knowledgeable student and move on to my favorite works/ careers. I don't even know if I could find one.Wow the future is tough..

Some say study is a waste of time, others decide to live in the moment and enjoy life instead. No doubt, life is meant to be enjoyed! It's just that, a little too much enjoyment leads to laziness, like me :P. Right now, I'm trying to avoid entertainment (as well as my computer). I learned that too much internet exposure is unhealthy, physically and emotionally. It actually affects my healthy eyes and making me addictive every minute I'm online.

Nowadays, most teen goes for popularity, glamor, style etc. & the internet is poisoning our minds! As adolescence, we are still in the process of finding our true self, our own personality, that's why we are easily influenced. Oh wells..I hope for the better when I'm older. 14 isn't really so tough as it seems.

Sometimes, my mum would say to me something like, "you're not a girl anymore, you should know how to handle yourself" and I thought that I'm not a little girl, true, but I'm not a fully grown woman myself, which makes me less decisive. Nevertheless, she also told me to look on the bright side of everything. God has plans for us all because He loves us. if somethings a strange me, I should not change me, it just means that I need to change my point of view.

I can feel that I'm typing out a lot of nonsense up there. I'd better stop ranting now, before my eyes worn out again. LOL. computers really should need lens protection, or whatever it should be called. Seriously.

p.s : avoiding my Facebook for at least 1-2 weeks. sorry facebook friends...I chose reality. Twitter, maybe I'll stay with you, but only for some short updates. Cheers!

Everything starts from learning, and that is true indeed!